6.24.2004

Well, I did it. I told Mom that she had to move her stuff out of the other trailer. I felt bad about it, I mean we did tell her she could stay there as long as she needed to. It just sucks that she already moved all her stuff in. I mean, the whole place is decorated and everything, even though there wasn't any water, electricity, septic, etc. And now she's told me she doesn't know if she'll be able to get her stuff packed before they leave for Michigan (on July 2nd). So, joy of joys, I'll most likely be the lucky gal that gets to pack up all her stuff and store it in the shed, then pack up and move my own stuff. We can't wait until she gets back at the end of July to start moving. No way. The kids start school August 6, and we want to be over there and as settled as possible before then.

There were no hard feelings, though, which is good. Well, I shouldn't say that, she may be pissed as hell at me but she hasn't said so. Ha! Seriously, I didn't bring up any of her actions or anything, I just told her that because of the financial situation and the shop potentially closing and all that, we needed to move over there and we needed to do it soon. She said she understood, we have to think about what is best for our family and not really worry about her. I still have that damn guilt complex that makes me feel bad about it. I try to talk myself out of it though. :)

I'll scan in the floorplans and all as soon as I get around to it. They're nothing professional, just a little piece I did on graph paper, just for reference. We're really lucky that Darrell knows how to do all this building stuff, we could never afford to hire all this stuff out.

We took the kids and went fishing last night up at Danny's pond. I took a book so I could read, but instead I spent the entire time keeping Shelby from falling in the water. She kept throwing all the rocks she could find in the water, which we all know is not good for catching fish. Heh. Mackenzie caught a bunch though, probably a good 7 or 8. They were all small brim, and some of them were no bigger than the ones in Darrell's fish tank. Heh. She had a good time though. She and Hunter learned how to bait their own hooks and cast out the line themselves. We've always done that for them before. The only thing they wouldn't do is actually take the fish off the hook. Heh.

After we got home, we watched 50 First Dates. It was really good. I figured it would be, I like both Adam Sandler and Drew Barrymore. And Rob Schneider was hilarious in it.

Wow, I just realized that the 4th of July is next weekend. I don't know what we're going to do. Last year, Mom was just starting to date Richard and they came down and we grilled out. Amy came down too, and that's the night she went home and got all sad cause she was all alone and called Danny. I've seen her once since then. Wow. I don't want to buy any fireworks, they're just a waste of money really. I don't know of any displays around here, there aren't any that I know of. They never put on anything like that. I wish the city would do a display up at the park or something. The kids love to watch fireworks. We'll think of something to do I guess.

I realized today that the kids have 6 weeks until they go back to school. Half of their summer break has already went by! They have the whole month of July, the rest of this month and the first week in August. Crazy. I went through clothes yesterday and dug out several pairs of shorts, two pants and some capris that Mackenzie can finally wear. They were given to me a long time ago, they're all 7s and 8s. So that sets her up for the warm part of the school year anyway, at least in pants. She needs some shirts, new underwear and socks, and new shoes. I saw some really cute shirts at Wal-Mart last night that will be perfect for school. They are just plain short sleeve shirts, some are solid colors, some are stripes, and some have writing on the front. They are all $5 each. I'm going to get her several of those, and then a few others of some other type. I'm gonna go this weekend or next and go ahead and put them some clothes on layaway. Hunter has three pairs of shorts that are nice looking, the rest are definitely not school clothes. So he needs a few more pair of shorts, shirts, socks, underwear, and shoes. And he has no pants for the winter. He's grown so much over the past year, we no longer have a stockpile of stuff to reuse the next season. He's like a baby, he outgrows each size in one season that I can't reuse his clothes. And what he could possibly wear the next year, he ruins - either by getting holes all in it or staining it beyond repair. He's definitely rough on clothes.

6.10.2004

I always forget to read my comments. Heh. Am I supposed to reply to them, like it's a message board? LOL I'm clueless.

Tonight is Mackenzie's last ball game. They won their game on Tuesday, 24-23. It was so close! What a great game, though. That team is a good one to play. Actually all the teams are except for one. They are really good (they didn't lose a single game), but they're snooty about it. I was so glad to finish the last game against them. :)

I called Amy today to tell her about a family reunion and about our great-grandmother, and we ended up talking for almost two hours! We haven't really talked like that in forever, almost a year now I guess. It was easy though, we used to talk on the phone for hours all the time. I can't call her too too often though, it's long-distance. Heh.

Mom came by, she wants me to drive her to Dyersburg on Monday. I told her I couldn't. I wouldn't mind going and seeing Grandma, but my radiator acts up sometimes, and I don't know if I'll have gas money anyway. We have quite a bit of bills to pay this weekend (none of which she's offered to pitch in for, including an almost $200 electric bill).

An old friend of mine dropped by the forum yesterday. I was shocked to see her. We used to be really close friends. We originally met on a forum for younger parents, then we ended up starting HerTime together. We talked on the phone all.the.time, and we even met in person a couple of times. Then after Shelby was born she kind of slacked off on the phone calls. She and her husband moved a lot and I didn't have contact information for her a lot of time. Then they finally moved back to their hometown and she still wasn't getting in touch with me that much. I often felt that I had put more into our friendship than she had. I mean, she would never call me back when she said she would, she didn't return emails, she just was generally inconsiderate in a lot of ways. I wrote her a few letters, sent pictures of Shelby and stuff and never got a response. Finally, at Christmas that year, I sent her a Christmas card with a letter that basically told her how I felt. I told her that I was tired of basically having a friendship with myself, because I was the only one doing anything. I mean, I didn't expect that we'd talk on the phone daily and email once a week or anything. But a few months after you've written a letter you kind of expect SOME type of response, whether it's a letter in return or a quick phone call or something. So I haven't been in touch with her since that time. I guess it pissed her off, since she never attempted to apologize or get back in touch with me.

She's posting at the old parents forum and we posted back and forth a little bit but it's kind of strained. Or maybe I'm just expecting it to be strained and am reading into it. She hasn't mentioned our last correspondence. Heh. It's weird, "seeing" her again.

Well, I'm out of stuff to talk about for one day. I think of all these things I want to type out in my blog, but when I sit down to do it my mind goes blank. Figures, huh?

6.07.2004

I hate mopping. Really, if there was one chore I could pick that I'd never have to do again, I'd pick mopping.

My arm is better, thank you for asking. :) I didn't go to the doctor because it cleared up on it's own after a few days of limited movement, and my Dr. was on vacation that week anyway. I think I just slept on it wrong and pulled something slightly out of place.

The situation with my Mom is improved, but only because she's not here. Haha! Last week, Richard's mother lost her balance coming down a ladder, fell, and broke her hip. She thought she was on the bottom rung, but was on the second one up, and she stepped down from it like she was on the bottom, then lost her balance and fell down. Ladies, take your calcium! But anyway, so there was brief talk about hiring my mom as a full-time "helper", so to speak. She'd live in their upstairs apartment and be paid to take care of them (Richard's dad has Alzheimers, so he can't be left alone), doing day to day stuff. So Darrell and I were happy about that, because she'd be moving out and no hurt feelings.

Then her children, most of which live in Michigan, talked her and her husband into coming up there and staying for a while. They had planned to go in July anyway, for some sort of church camp thing, and Mom was going to go with them to drive them. So now, she's staying there taking care of them for the next 6 weeks or so, then she'll still go with them to Michigan in July. My only beef with this is it's like another temporary job, and when she gets back from Michigan in late July, she'll be in the same boat she's in now - NO JOB. She'll basically be starting from scratch in her search, which prolongs her stay here.

But Darrell and I have decided to go ahead with the addition to the other trailer. We're going to build on two bedrooms and a living room. The new addition will be around 20 feet wide and 70 feet long. We'll have a 30x20 foot living room, a 15x20 foot bedroom, and a 25x20 foot bedroom. The two new rooms will be a master bedroom, which we'll be putting a bathroom in also, and a bedroom for the two little girls. We also plan to rip out all of the paneling in the old trailer and put sheetrock in. What is now the kitchen and living room will become kitchen and dining room. We plan to replace all the cabinets in the kitchen, and add some new ones, along with a pantry. We also plan to put hardwood (or laminate, more likely) floors in the old and new spaces. Yay for no carpet! Heh. After we do all that, we're going to brick around both structures (which will actually be one by that time), and voila! A house. :) But like I said, we are going to go ahead and start. We're going to be doing it all ourselves, and doing it as we can, so it's not going to be a quick task by any means. It'll take us a good while, but at least we have a place to live in the meantime, even if it is cramped. This way Mom has time to look for and find a job and get her own place. This will also let her know without a doubt that this is not a place for her to stay indefinitely. We thought we were clear to begin with, but we've got the impression from her that she intends to live out her golden years in that trailer. Not. We didn't buy it for her to live in. And the best part is, it'll all be PAID FOR when we're finished. A house and no mortgage, won't that be great?

The heartburn has really started to kick in with this pregnancy lately. I get it a lot for no reason. I doubt this child having a lot of hair though, none of my other kids did and I had bad heartburn with them too. So much for that old wives' tale.

I am so tired today. I had to get up early to take Darrell to work, because I had to run make a deposit at the bank. I didn't get in bed until after 11 last night, and I'm not used to that. I don't want to get in the habit of staying up late and sleeping in. I like sleeping in, but then it seems the day goes by so fast and is wasted.

Mackenzie has two more softball games to finish up the season. I don't know why they cram so many games in 6 weeks time and end the season so early in the summer. Weird. But she's had a good time, and she's gotten really good. They had a game on Saturday, and they won 11-4. I don't know how many we've won vs. lost though. It doesn't really matter though, she's had fun playing and that's the important part. I think she'll probably play again next summer. She wants to play soccer this fall, but I'm kind of hesitant. It's more expensive for one thing, and I've heard a lot about knee injuries in soccer. Plus they do all their games on Saturdays, which isn't really good for us. We've had two softball games on Saturday. Occasionally I can handle it, but not every weekend. Darrell is home on Saturdays and we usually use those days to do things as a family. She wanted to cheerlead too, for the Jr. Pro teams. Those teams are not school affiliated, our Ele. and Intermediate schools don't do football - football doesn't start in the school system until 7th grade. So this lets the littler ones play, and they put together a cheerleading squad too. But I told her no. It's even more expensive, you have to buy the uniforms, certain shoes, etc., and there is a lot of travel to competitions and such.