11.08.2007

I'm pissed off!

I am in a bad fucking mood, lately. I don't know what it is, but I am more confrontational than I have ever been, and just about everything is pissing me off. My kids' teachers, my husband's boss (which also happens to be his father), my husband's brother (who thinks he is the boss), my college, random people on the internet. Heh.

Spring registration for currently enrolled students starts Monday. They have the schedule up now, so you can view it and pick your classes. I can't get any.thing. to match up. The classes that I had planned to take are not available on the same days, the times don't work out, and it's all pissing me off. I think I've got it figured out now, thank goodness. Speech as an internet course (although I'm not sure how that works), Essentials of American Government and Politics, Spanish II, and College Algebra. I had only planned to take two of those courses, but the other two aren't available in the times/days I need them to be. I was planning to take an 8:00 AM class, so I could get home earlier, but I can't because they are wanting to change Darrell's hours at work to start at 7 AM, and he couldn't be able to drive the kids to school. I would have to leave by 7:15 at the very latest to make an 8 o'clock class.

Darrell's brother suggested today that they start working Saturdays. Every Saturday. And working 7-5 everyday. That is 60 fucking hours a week. Even if he got a raise with this shit, it still wouldn't work out to be very much per hour, compared to the current hours and pay. IF he got the raise he wanted, he'd still be making $3.75 less per hour than he is now, and be working 20 more hours per week. He's salaried, so increasing his hours doesn't increase his pay necessarily. It's a ridiculous notion, and it would take me all night to explain the history with his family, and the reason we are so pissed about this. Nevermind the fact that he has a wife and small children that he likes to spend time with, nevermind that he has things he likes to do on the weekend, nevermind the fact that his back is getting worse all the time and he needs the weekend to at least somewhat recuperate from the workweek and let his back rest. They just want to get the work out faster so they can make more money.

Then his brother has the nerve to tell him that sometimes we have to "make sacrifices". What the FUCK does he know about sacrificing anything? He's always been taken care of by their dad, while Darrell gets the shitty end of the stick. He's always gotten extra money, back when they worked on commission. If he didn't make at least $700 each week, their dad would give him more money to go on. There were weeks, when Hunter and Mackenzie were little, that Darrell would barely clear $100, but that was just fine. But we didn't need any help. I think we've made plenty of damn sacrifices in our marriage. We don't have new vehicles, we don't have a nice new house, we don't go and drop hundreds of dollars on things just because we want them, their dad didn't go and finance a home for us in his name. I'm in awe of the kind of nerve it takes for HIM to tell US that sometimes you have to sacrifice.

So, anyway, that was way more than I intended to type about that particular situation. I'm just stressed with school, and I think it's causing my inner bitch to come out. I'm usually so easy going, but I'm at the point where I want to break bad on somebody's ass here lately. Heh.

4 comments:

Kimmer said...

I don't think you are "just stressed with school." I agree that school is a big stressful pain right now, but that family issue has got to be at least as bad. How can they ask that, especially when he's salaried? Do they even get how that is a huge pay cut? Can Darrell tell them flat no, he won't work that much more? It's so hard dealing with family, especially when there are favorites. My heart really goes out to you; I hope the school and work stuff work out smoothly.

Paula said...

No, they don't care that it's a huge pay cut. They don't really care about us at all. The only reason they keep Darrell there is so they can work him to death, because he IS a good worker. I told him to tell them no, that he won't work those hours or Saturdays, and to tell them to call me if they have a problem with it. The dynamic in that family is very messed up, so it's hard to explain. Dysfunctional doesn't even begin to touch on it. I so wish Darrell could quit and stay home with the kids while I finish school. For a lot of reasons, but getting away from them is a huge one.

Pez said...

Paula, I am sorry that things are bad for you right now. That sucks about school and classes not lining up for you. It is ridiculous about Darrell's famly expecting him to work that many more hours! I hope that things get worked out and that when you finish school Darrell will be able to quit his job and find one AWAY from his family. {{hugs}}

Paula said...

Thanks, Denine. He's at work right now, and they don't even have much work out there to do. Certainly nothing that couldn't wait until Monday.